It never fails that when I really need someone my honey is out of town for work. This sucks, I hate it and I just want to scream. He is my best friend, the only one in my life that is stable and really understands me. My honey is the ONLY one that I can trust with everything and anything. Sometimes I tend to forget that. Days like this make me want to run to him and tell him thank you for being my best everything. I seriously need to make changes in my life. I always say that and never follow trough, now it's written so there is no going back. I will only disappoint myself if I do. I think it will only benefit me in the long run. I really hope there are better days ahead for me because I can't handle all of this at the moment. Have you ever had one of those days where you just want to tell everyone to F off? (Not to you fellow BLM's!!!) Well today is one of those days for me. UURRGGHH!!!!