Sunday, April 17, 2011

Where I am today

It's been a while to get to read post and actually write one. Being home I have not had a chance to relax or sit for a second. Julian has me busy, rearranging everything at home and cleaning up has had me exhausted but I know it will all be worth it. My body is tired, the last weeks of pregnancy are hard. I ache pretty much everywhere but I will do it again, I love being a mommy. My belly is  huge and I bump it everywhere these days (sorry Emma). Emotionally I have been a little bad. I miss Sami more and more as the birth of Emma gets closer. I find myself wondering more and more who she would be like or how she would be at almost 18 months old. I have much happier days now but that pain is still so present in my heart. Just when I think I am used it to it creeps back like it was just yesterday.
Hopefully I will have more time on my hands by the end of the week to keep everyone up to date with my life. I feel so lost when I am not reading blogs or writing a little something. Hope everyone is well ((HUGS)).

6 comments:

Caroline said...

{{HUGS}}
Take care & Miss you.
Pregnancy after loss is rough , I know. Keeping you & Emma & your family in my prayers.

Sarita Boyette said...

(((HUGS))) - thinking about you and I have you in my prayers, too. I know you miss Sami as you prepare for Emma. Hope you get some rest before her arrival.

Hope's Blog said...

I am thinking about you and your family and knowing it is getting close. I pray that labor is short and delivery quick. I know you are missing Sami and she is waiting anxiously for Emma with you. {{{HUGS}}}

PB&J said...

looking forward to posts and pics of your rainbow.. and know that the journey is hard.. and it is OK for it to be hard.. there is nothing wrong with sad days and I MISS YOU's to your baby girl... Thinking of you and KNOWING what this is about to be for you...

Holly said...

It's been a while since I've been able to even sit and read blogs. I'm sure as the time gets closer you get more and more ready.

Jill said...

I have been thinking about you and wondering how you are doing. Always sending my love. xo

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