Happy 1st Birthday to baby Nolan in heaven today.
Please stop by and give his mommy Ashley (A ruby family) a few encouraging words since today is a really emotional day for her. When I first started this blog almost a year ago this is one of the first blogs I started following. Nolan's life really touched my heart and continues to do so. Ashley is just an amazing person. Ashley wishing and praying for strength today. I know Nolan is going to send you many hugs today that will warm with you with peace.
Today, I am feeling better. Monday's I swear just wear me out. I had a client call in to work. He was very happy to know that I am back and so on. He kept talking and talking, asking questions about the baby (he knew I was on maternity leave). I couldn't stop him and finally when I did I had to tell him that my baby girl was no longer with me, that in itself is already difficult. His response was "oh well at least you still have your son", WTF????? Excuse my language. Really? People really speak without thinking, I hate that. I always try to make the best of Monday's but something always has to happen to bring me down. I have learned to just ignore comments like that and do my job but from now on I asked to never have to speak to that client again. One day it's going to just set me off and someone is going to see the not so nice side of me. I feel it coming and it scares me.
Julian was also having a bad Monday too, thank God that by the end of the night he was able to calm down. He sweetened up my night by giving me kisses and talking about the baby. I have to record him one day and post it on here, it is just the cutest thing ever. I hope he always remembers her. Well Monday is behind me for the moment, today I am just going to count my blessings and hope for a much better day.