Wednesday, September 02, 2009

Today is a good day!

Today is a good day!!! I woke up in a really good mood today, I think Julian had a lot to do with it, he woke up so happy that it just instantly made me smile. Thank goodness for my little man!!!

Today I have a 3D ultrasound so I get to see Sami, I am really excited about that. I hope she lets us see her little face. Tomorrow I have a doctor appointment too so I get to see her 2 days in a row and I love it. I am going to try to not let them get to me with bad news. I refuse!!! I cannot believe I am already 29 weeks, where has the time gone? I am starting to feel like I am on the downhill stretch of this pregnancy and although I want to make the time go by slowly I am also looking forward to not being pregnant. My body aches and I am really feeling tired and exhausted everyday. The extra pounds I have put on are finally catching up to me! I try to take it in day by day and thank the Lord above for this time with Sami.

I have been getting things ready for her mass this coming Monday and a BBQ to follow so that has kept my mind busy, it's been kind of nice. I made some candle favors to share and although it took some time to make them it felt good, kind of like therapy. It is weird to not be planning a baby shower at this time but I am okay with it now. I try to not really think about it. I go to the stores and see so many cute things for baby showers that I would like to buy but know I can't, that kind of makes me sad. It makes it easy for me to get emotional but these past few days I have been in really good spirits. I have been waiting for days like this and finally they are here!!! Let's see how long they last.

I think I am finally accepting and coming to terms that I have an angel in my belly. These past few months it has been so hard to fully comprehend that. In the last few days I have not felt sad on the otherhand I feel like I need to be celebrating her life. Now I feel like I want to share her. I want people to feel my belly and feel her kicks. I want to shout out to the world that I am carrying a beautiful angel in my belly and how blessed I really am. It is such a weird feeling to want to laugh, shout and cry at the same time. Being pregnant comes with so many emotions and well with this pregnancy boy have I had my share of different emotions! This is a crazy journey to be on, I do not wish this upon anyone but somehow, little by little I am finding the good in all of this. I have met some wonderful people along the way and made my relationships with others so much stronger. I know I have not said it in a while but for everyone who has been so supportive and understanding THANK YOU once again.

I will post new pictures of Sami soon, hopefully I will be able to share her beautiful face with everyone.

4 comments:

Holly said...

I am so glad that you are having happy days!! I hope they stick around for you. And hooray for seeing Sami on US! And twice! I hope you get to see her sweet face on the screen. Hope the mass goes well. Planning for stuff like that keeps your hands and mind busy. Yes, celebrate her beautiful life!!

Hope's Blog said...

I am so glad you are having happy days. I know it can be overwhelming at times, but the happy days make it all worthwhile. I know your Mass will be wonderful!

I can't wait to see more pictures!

Laura said...

So thankful you are finding moments to smile and have joy in your heart. You are walking this journey so well. Praying for sweet moments with your family as you celebrate Sami each day.

Sending love...

Seraphim said...

I am glad you are having a happy day. I hope your Mass is wonderful. I co-founded "Whispered Support" and just want you to know you are in my thoughts and prayers. xxxxx

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