I am not sure why I have been so afraid to post this but I am expecting again. I am terrified but so excited at the same time. A pregnancy after loss is so darn different. As many others on this journey have said they feel "robbed" well I agree. I want to be jumping up for joy like before without having to be worried so much. October is such a hard month for me as it is and now adding those lovely pregnancy hormones to it just makes it a little more overwhelming. I have given it so much thought whether or not to do another blog for this new journey but I can't even keep up with this one sometimes so I am going to just keep this one. I know for some of you hearing about rainbow's isn't easy and I feel bad but everything I do in my life will always include Sami. I feel like this little one to be is a true gift from above. Let's see if the dream I had with Marie (telling me that my son Joseph will come home to me soon) is true.
I will have a lovely gift for my May birthday in 2011. Wish me luck and please pray that I will be able to come home with a live baby this time.