I can hardly believe that Sami's memorial is this Saturday! I am almost ready, I just need to finish the names on the balloon for the balloon release that I am very excited for. I just got news that we found someone to play the piano during her mass, I didn't want it to be so quiet. We will also have a guitarist during her lunch. He is a good friend and last year he played at her service and I told he had to make us smile with his music again. I am sure my family will like that surprise.
I have been feeling way better this week, I hope this is just a sign for better days to come with this little rainbow. On Tuesday, Sami's actual birthday I get to go see the specialist for my NT scan. To say I am nervous is an understatement. That is the same test that let me know something was wrong. I haven't really thought about it because I will make myself sick so I will just let it be until that day. Please pray that all is well with this little one. I don't know what I will do if they find something wrong again. OK enough of that for now... This week I am have been smiling more even though I can't believe it's going to be one year since my beautiful Sami as here with me, sigh! In this year I have cried like never before, it's normal to me now yet I have smiled like never before because she has blessed me in so many ways. I am so thankful Sami came into my life, what a beautiful blessing from above.
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