Thursday, October 21, 2010

Almost time

I can hardly believe that Sami's memorial is this Saturday! I am almost ready, I just need to finish the names on the balloon for the balloon release that I am very excited for. I just got news that we found someone to play the piano during her mass, I didn't want it to be so quiet. We will also have a guitarist during her lunch. He is a good friend and last year he played at her service and I told he had to make us smile with his music again. I am sure my family will like that surprise.

I have been feeling way better this week, I hope this is just a sign for better days to come with this little rainbow. On Tuesday, Sami's actual birthday I get to go see the specialist for my NT scan. To say I am nervous is an understatement. That is the same test that let me know something was wrong. I haven't really thought about it because I will make myself sick so I will just let it be until that day. Please pray that all is well with this little one. I don't know what I will do if they find something wrong again. OK enough of that for now... This week I am have been smiling more even though I can't believe it's going to be one year since my beautiful Sami as here with me, sigh! In this year I have cried like never before, it's normal to me now yet I have smiled like never before because she has blessed me in so many ways. I am so thankful Sami came into my life, what a beautiful blessing from above.

10 comments:

Kristine said...

I'll be thinking of you! I know her memorial will be beautiful. xo

PB&J said...

I can't wait to see the memorial pictures I will be thinking of her and you and all that is going on in your rainbow world too. Be tender to your heart this weekend.

belle said...

praying every breath until i read your ultrasound post

xoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxo

may your service bring tenderness and blessings and healing to your heart! i know our girls are dancing together in heaven at His feet! (((((hugs)))))

Hope's Blog said...

I have been thinking about you a lot lately. I know her memorial is this weekend and I wish I could have made the trip...it is going to be beautiful. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers and I can't wait to see some pictures from the memorial.

Sarita Boyette said...

Yes, you can always remember that you had a beautiful little girl with dark pretty curls - Sami left you with great blessings, even though you miss her so much. Praying for your tests - that Rainbow will be perfectly healthy. xoxoxo

Franchesca said...

I remember following along your blog before your precious Sami was here. I just cannot believe it's going to be a year!!! Time flies, and my heart is with you. I've been thinking lots about you, as I know Sami's day is approaching.

(((hugs)))

The Blue Sparrow said...

I'll keep you in my prayers! Im glad you're finding your smile again, you deserve it! The memorial will be perfect! (((HUGS)))

Michelle said...

Wow a year already. I bet you have a beautiful service set up for her. She will be holding hands with her brother/sister and watch from above! I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers as you go for your scan. I know it can be so scary.

Malory said...

I have been thinking of you so much lately. Praying that her service brings you as much healing as Janessa's did for me.

lost--for--words said...

Thinking about you and Sami always - but especially today... I know that she will be with you watching over you and her little brother or sister on Tuesday when you have your check-up.

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