Friday, October 01, 2010

October

October, you bring me a flood of emotions. Last year I was so lost and scared now I am just missing my sweet baby girl. I am proud of myself that I have come this far in my feelings. I never thought I would get here. I thought I would have that feeling of dying forever. I still hurt, that will never go away but I have learned to accept my fate and go with it. Sami's life has touched so many people, it makes me smile. I am still not quite where I want to be because I still haven't quite figured out how I am going to give back. So many things have crossed my mind but I am just stuck. I will let it go for now, let October pass and hopefully the little light will finally go on. I pray to God that this month is gentle on my heart. I didn't think it would be this month emotional for me and it's just day 1!!! Last year she was still with me physically and this year just her memory, sigh....

12 comments:

heathermohr said...

I too am always amazed to look back at a year ago...

Many hugs to you.

Wyatt's Mommie said...

(((Hugs to you)))

Jill said...

HUGS!

Holly said...

I hope that this month will be gentle on your heart. It's amazing how far you can come.

April said...

I hope that this month will bring you more joy than saddness as you remember little Sami. Thinking you you...

PB&J said...

October.. is a page I would rather not turn on the calandar.. and then.. without it I would have never known such a wonderful group of people. Remembering Sami with you and always.

croleyc69 said...

Remembering your precious Sami with you.

{{HUGS}}

Caroline

Sarita Boyette said...

I hope this month brings you peace as you remember Sami and have her memorial. She is a precious baby who has touched LOTS of lives.
May God bless you especially as you go through October. (((HUGS)))

Kelly @ Sufficient Grace Ministries said...

Praying this month will be gentle on your heart...grateful for God's healing and strength. May He pour His grace over you.

Love to you...

Jessica said...

Beautiful butterfly. I hope the coming days bring you some peace. If you would ever like a dove for your sweet Sami check out my blog - heaven's doves button is on there - I do them for free for those who would like them :) Much love to you <3

butterflymom said...

I will be right with you as we tackle this month together. Hoping our girls are together too...Hugs to you always, Lisette.

Michelle said...

You have been an inspiration to me.... I want you to know that. I am sending you GIANT HUGS!!!!

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