Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Happy Birthday Sami




HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my precious daughter!!!
I am filled with so many emotions right now that it is so hard to type and put into words how I feel. As I watch the clock I am put back to every second that happened last year on this day. From me remembering how guilty I felt for eating an ice cream so late at night but I couldn't help it because I just had to have it. Sami was kicking away and we laughed because I kept telling my husband that it wasn't me that wanted the ice cream it was her. Julian falling fast alseep after a long day at Disneyland and waking up screaming baby the second my water broke in bed. I still can't explain that moment. Just every second, I remember like it just happened. 5:04 AM we welcomed Lauren Samantha Delgado into this world. I wish I could feel her tiny breaths against my cheeck again, I wish I could feel her tiny hand wrapped around my finger and I wish I could feel her velver curls again. It has been such an amazing feeling being her mommy. There has been so much pain yet so much beauty. I am sure many of you have heard Beauty from Pain, well that's how it really is. One day I will understand why this happened. I just can't believe how fast this year has gone by. Again, I will say that just means that I am one day close to her.

Sami, mommy loves and misses you so much. I hope  you got to see all the balloons on Saturday. It was so special to see all them fly up together. I wish I could hold you once again, I wish I could look into your eyes and tell you how much I need you here with me. I am broken because you have a piece of me with you. I know you are in a better place but the selfish part of me wants you here. Julian has been singing Happy Birthday to you all weekend, can you hear him? Please send me a warm whisper to reassure me that you are happy and that you really do feel my love.
Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday dear Sami Happy Birthday to you!!!!

I love you so much little mama!!!

19 comments:

klarsen said...

Happy Birthday sweet Sami! Keeping you close in thoughts and prayers Lisette. xoxo

Jill said...

Happy birthday, Sami!!! Love to you, Lisette. XO

PB&J said...

Lisette... soak in today and all that love you and Sami. Happy Birthday Sami!! I love you too little one.

Hope's Blog said...

Happy Birthday Sami! You are so loved here on Earth and I am sure you are just as loved in Heaven.

Big {{{HUGS}}} to you Lisette.

Michele said...

Happy Birthday, Sami!!! Thinking of you...

April said...

Happy Birthday, Sami! I hope you get that warm whisper today...Thinking of you...

Franchesca said...

Sami, I hope you are having the most beautiful birthday in Heaven. You are missed, and loved and it is has been an honor to read about you through your mommy's blog for you.

Love you Lisette

xxxx

AnnaMarie said...

Happy birthday Precious Sami!

(((hugs))) for you Lisette

Kara said...

Happy Heavenly Birthday Sweet Sami!!

Once A Mother said...

"I wish I could feel her tiny breaths against my cheeck again," this rips so deeply at my heart.

Sami- you are so loved and so very very missed. Each of us who have come to know you through your momma are blessed to bear witness to the love that she has for you, and to have you in our hearts.

Lisette - remembering your sweet little Sami with you today, and every day. Sending an extra strong hug to get you through this day. And praying that you hear that sweet soft whisper in your ear.

Jessica said...

Happy birthday sweet Sami :)

mrslinares said...

Happy birthday Sami!!!

The Blue Sparrow said...

Wishing Sami a very Happy Heavenly Birthday! Thinking of you! (((HUGS)))

Crystal Theresa said...

Lisette, I love seeing these beautiful pictures of you and your baby girl. The love you have for her pours through. I hope that you are washed over with love, peace, and sweetness as you remember your precious time with Sami. Happy heavenly birthday to a sweet little girl!

Sarita Boyette said...

Lauren Samantha was the prettiest baby girl with the cutest curls I've ever seen. I can remember the pictures from last year with her sweet face and pretty curly hair. She was so brave to live and give you some time with her here. I am sorrowful for you that Sami isn't here. But I also rejoice that Jesus is keeping her safe for you to hold once more. xoxoxo

Malory said...

Always thinking of Sami. I did so especially on her birthday. Your words ripped at my heart. Sending you love Lisette.

Holly said...

Happy Birthday Sami

Mattie said...

Thinking of you and Sami.

Mary said...

Sami you're such a precious liitle girl. Remembering you.

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